The Struggle to Write

Each writer has times they get writer’s block, or can not seem to find words to share with others. Since April, I have struggled to write. I do not have the struggle of writer’s block, but lack of time. My life is rather busy.

For those who may not know, in April I started caring for three of my grandchildren, ages 11 months, 2 years and 3 years. My day starts at 6 am with a small amount of time to wake up and talk to the Creator for have the strength and wisdom to navigate the day. At 6:30 am, children are waking up, there are diapers to change, food to prepare and children to feed. Then we are outside to move sheep to pasture, feed other sheep and livestock, and fill all the water troughs. Laundry, dishes, food preparations and the ever needing care of the children keep me busy. Finally at 8:30 pm the house is quiet, all are in bed asleep. Now is when I have the time to write, but most days I am so tired my fingers do not want to work, or my brain put sentences together.

I struggled with not having the time to write. I missed the writing. I missed putting my words down for others to read, or the creation of a story that will be come a novel. Writing on my blogs and reading the comments, as well as ready others blogs. After several weeks with the children, I realized my life was in a different season now. The path I am on now is one of being a “Granny-Mom”, and the children are my work or gift at this time.

How long will I be the caregiver for these three small children? Only the Creator knows. I do know that caring for three small children at the age of 60 years is tiring. My mind and body needs rest when the quietness of evening arrives. The time to write will be few. The rewards of caring and teaching three young minds to talk and grow from infant to child are starting to be many. I now only change the diapers on two children. Instead of guessing what the two toddlers want or need, they are using words. And there are times we are working on conversation. Now, my words are verbal teaching, instruction and guidance shaping young minds towards adulthood.

The quietness of evening, when the sun and children are asleep, a time to give thanks for the day, remember the small accomplishments of little ones, and every once in awhile to put my thoughts to words to share with others.

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